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Date : Wednesday, December 9
Time : 11:24 PM Title : YAY TTM TOMORROW IM GOING TO KBOX IM SO HAPPY BECAUSE THE DAY HAD FINALLY CAME AFTER 2 YEARS IM SO EXCITED IM GOING TO TREAT IT AS A TREAT FOR MYSELF. PLS LET TOMORROW TO BE A GOOD SINGING DAY AND I WILL LOOK NICE PLS PLS PLS THANKYOU EVERYONE :D :D :D
Date : Tuesday, December 8
Time : 11:31 PM Title : ignorant? Someday, I will prove to those who looked down on me, insulted me, looking at me like a speck of dust, those who said those words to me.
That will be my best day, and the day that I won't even care how I look anymore. Because I know I have finally accomplished something great. Something that I couldn't believe that I even succeeded in doing it. The day WILL come.
Date :
Time : 11:12 PM Title : I don't care about what you think anymore. I want more clothes. I want shoes. I want to have sneakers. I want to have new sandals. I want nice legs with no scars or whatsoever. I want to look good. I want to be confident. I want to be looked up to, instead of the opposite(which is most of the time). I want to be respected. I want to be contented with myself.
I used to hide myself sometimes when writing here because I was actually scarred if certain people. But now, I just don't want to care anymore. This is how I am and please just FACE IT, rather than forcing me to change to someone that I'm grossed out by. This is my life and I have to learn how to live it properly, starting from now. I guess this is a great time for graduation, don't you think so? But everytime I think about my friends, I will still hesitate. Who don't right. I've seen myself changing quite alot during these few years in plsec, do you? If not, try remembering my bung hairstyle in sec1. LOL!
Date : Monday, December 7
Time : 7:29 PM Title : ? No you are all wrong. I just hate shoutings and scary politeness.
Or else, everything will be alright :D
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Time : 1:51 PM Title : Switched on. I even wrote a letter(I can't believe it myself) to you, but you are still the same. We tried many ways to tell you how we feel, but you don't understand. Why don't you get it? Sometimes, you are trying way too hard, and it really scares us. I also have feelings. Although I admit, I behave childishly to all your actions but actually it's because I don't even know how to react. I don't even have a private space anymore. What should I do, run to the storeroom and hide to escape from the chaos? I'm sorry, it won't work. So what should I do to express my true feelings put, without hurting anybody? Simple, and I did that. And BOOM another dispute appeared. I really don't know how to handle myself anymore. I wished I could ignore everything but I can't. We are family. I don't like politeness, it freaks me out. I just wanna see your true self, the one you don't even know about. We hinted you, we tried to tell you. Now it's your turn to find out more about yourself, not us. Because if you don't do that, everything will just be the same and this will still happen again. Lastly, I cared for you. And all that was out of frustration. Emotions. Sorry.
Date : Saturday, December 5
Time : 12:36 AM Title : :/ Okay, turns out she's not angry with me.
Okay, okay, I think I'm really becoming super sensitive about all this already but I'm really scared of broken friendships now. Like, really, really scared.
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Time : 12:21 AM Title : blahblahblah the previous post was rubbish so don't look at it. I was probably having moodswings or something.
It was at night so I had some confusion with the previous problems so yupp. Anyways, holidays are freaking boring. Should have went for the interview for toy r us. Stupid man. I even feel like doing maths but till now, I haven't cos I lazy to take the shinglee book. I also tell myself to exercise the next day but haven't. SO I made a decision to wake up early tomorrow to go jog and I must cos I need to lose weight asap! I also need to get rid of my pimple face n0w.Whatever, whatever you may say but now really have a pimple face. I'm looking at jobs now, I need to keep myself busy to have less pimples(weird, blame my body). DIE I created another trouble again due to the previous post. I think.
Date : Tuesday, December 1
Time : 12:07 AM Title : SO, is it my problem again?
IS itttt?! Previous friendship problems solved and now another one. And it's totally ironic when I'm feeling the same way and all.... You know what, !@#$%^&*()_+|/ I'm seriously tired of all these stuff. My mind is all filled with blah's comment of how failure we are in planning, and I really hate it. Seriously I hate all hese shi and I really don't feel like caring or apologising anymore. Do you know how tiring it is? Maybe not because I'm always the one doing all these. Everyone cares for you but you do not realise it. Do you know how I feel? I felt rejected, left out too, and it's every time. But why are you saying all these now??! I'm really tired now. Fuck off, friendship problems. I'm a bitch and that's it.
Date : Monday, November 30
Time : 12:18 AM Title : YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL Okay I'm playing Mika's "Big Girl(You Are Beautiful)" repeatedly to brainwash myself.
Hopefully. :D MORE COURAGE MORE COURAGE MAN! |
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